Ah, what to call this

I'll begin with an apology. My blog has been quite...dead for a while. Although I could begin my list of excuses with my limited access to a computer device for a week as a result of my Brother spilling food on it when I let him borrow it to write his final paper, which I wrote half of, I will not...OK, you got me. I already did. Nevertheless, I hope you all didn't miss me and my boring life too much. ;)

I guess I will begin this with a little bit of a girl's problem. That's right, it will be about gaining weight and looking fat in that tiny black dress. So, brace yourselves. You can't say I didn't warn ya.

As we all know, it's that time of the year where high school graduations are bombarding all the arenas and coliseums in your city. If your relatives or neighbors are anything like mine, this also means big parties where all the people invited are all of your parents friends that you don't know or remember and they claim to have held you once when you were a baby and expect you to remember them, but you know they only want you to know them because they know you're going to college and think you will be something big and they want be that person that points at the TV or newspaper or magazine and say "I know her/him. He/She knows me."
Anyways...with these parties come buffet style food. All you can eat, delicious food. So what have I done? Gorged myself in all this food. Why? Because it's free and I love food. And what are the consequences? I gain 5 pounds. Yikes. And now I shall wallow in my despair.

I know, this is stupid for me to be upset over. But I am now overweight and can barely fit the bridesmaid dress for the wedding. I will be that ugly creature that ruins the balance of the wedding. I miss being 120 lbs which was pretty good for my height of 5'2", but now I'm 10 +4 that weight, my double chin is back, and my belly has grown bigger than before, and my thighs aren't looking to good neither. Mehhhh. I need to stop thinking about myself in such a sad way. Why can't I be happy the way I am? Whyyyy?

Well, that's all for tonight. I'll post something more exciting tomorrow when I actually feel like typing. NIGHTS!