Sighs...

My gluts are sore. They been holding all my weight for much too long now.

My brain feels dead. I've been cramming information for past couple of days, and sleep has become nonexistent in the last couple of nights.

I feel lonely, out of place, and a bit annoyed - not just with the people around me, but with myself as well.

And for some reason I feel really, really, really sad.

I want to cry. Let the drops of saline water fall from my eyes as freely as they wish. Maybe that's what I need right now, a good cry.

I'm frustrated.

And I feel hurt. I don't even know why.

Maybe it's because I feel incompetent in this material I'm looking at.

Maybe it's because when I ask for help, I get scolded for not trying first; or laughed because it's common sense to them.

Maybe it's because I want to be in solitude right now.

Maybe it's because I blame myself for everything that's happening at this moment: the cramming, sleep deprivation, stress, and worry for tomorrow's two exams.

Who knows.

I'm just feeling like a gray cloud today.