For a short moment...

...I felt genuinely happy. The same kind of happy I use to feel years ago.
On April 20th, 2012 (I know this was like 3-days ago, bleh)  I returned from work thinking 'If I take a quick shower, I can finally do laundry then go to tonight's large group (a Christian fellowship), and then attend the charity event.' But things didn't happen in that order.

There were some misunderstandings about the timing of events, and it annoyed me a bit because I was right, but once again I failed to trust my instincts.

But a friend called and asked if I would like to join them for dinner and a movie at another friend's house and I gladly accepted. I felt a bit guilty about skipping out on large group, but I really felt that I needed to get a way for a little bit and I really messed hanging out with these beautiful ladies. I watched Bend it Like Beckham for the first time in my life and had the most delicious beefaroni and coconut cookies.

Afterwards, I attended the Charity event where we were to be walking for however long we wished. The team I was in walked for a short time, but soon decided to take a seat during the last 30 minutes of our assigned time slot. My friend and I continued to walk the whole way through.

I saw people throwing freesbies,  volleyballs, baseballs, and playing other games in the middle of the field. Curious if the objects were open to everyone, we jumped in and began passing a football back and forth. I haven't played football in years, but the familiar motion of my arms and wrist felt good. Even the fact that the football was still much too large for my tiny hands brought back good memories.

After a while, our arms began to hurt and we found a lonely volleyball sitting on the side. After our failed attempt to get a rally going, we decided to treat it like a soccer ball instead. Oh, how much I missed soccer. I haven't played soccer in 2 years and it felt like forever. I missed the sound of the ball when my foot would hit its surface and send it away to another. We passed it back and forth and soon, another friend joined us.

Our time slot was up and the others began to leave. We decided to stay longer and after a while moved on to throwing a freesbie. Not long after, we decided to take a break and found a barrel of free drinks (no one was monitoring them) and drank to our content while laying on those mats that those pole vaulters land on for track and field activities. We laid on the cold damp mat, taking in the scent of dirt, plastic, and sweat while staring into the dark sky. We were now star gazing. The problem though, was there were no stars. It was much too bright with all the stadium lights on, but we were able to make out about 10 little twinkling dots. It made us excited.

After we were tired of the damp, wet, and smelly mat, we moved on to the long jump station. Running and leaping to gain as much distance as we could, we ended up sitting in the sand and burying our blue feet into the cold gritty ground. It felt good. Drawing faces and things into the sand, we sat and enjoyed long laughs and jokes about feet, butts, and fart. One of the guys had been eying a dome like structure pushed off to side for a while, and when the security guard wasn't looking, we snuck into the dome.

It was echoy and a bit quieter in the dome. We sat on the benches inside and slowly began to let out secrets about ourselves, little by little. It lead to many laughs and a stronger bond and sense of comfort between the three of us, for we all had just meet during this school year.

When we got tired of the quietness, we returned back to the side full of music and males dressed in robes and dresses (they were doing a pageant to raise money). There were tables with beer pong items set up on them, and we started playing beer pong, me the girl versus the two boys. Of course I won :]

After having a sword fight with foamy items, we grew tired and decided to return to our beds. They walked me back to my room and we said our goodbyes. Walking into the dark room, I already missed them and I grew sad. For I knew that the short moment of smiles and laughter had just ended the moment I walked in. As quietly as I could, I showered and climbed into the bed hoping to have another day like this again.

Yours truly,
Gasybeans ♥